Lead Blanket

It feels like a leaden blanket

Laying across your body

Sometimes it feels like it's not there

But then you trip

And it tightens on you again

Your head is swollen

Like a big black balloon

But it's filled with nothing

Just hot air 

With little room for something real 

My body feels so heavy

So broken

It won't work right

My feet refuse to walk the straight line

Am I drunk again? 

No, that's not right 

Everything is too busy, too loud, too...

And nothing feels the same

How has this world gone on

Without you

There's laughter and cheer

And they expect you to share some 

But you don't

You can't

Nothing is right

It's only wrong 

Like the leaden blanket around your shoulders

When you should be given a hug 

R.I.P. you know who you are <3 

January 14, 2018 Zara S. Porteous