It feels like it's crawling
Up my chest
Into my head
Through my veins
Squeezing my lungs
Until I suffocate
It hurts
But I can't run anymore
Dare I try to hide?
Can I?
Should I?
Or will this destroy me in the end
This parasite inside of my head
It eats away the best parts of me
Until I'm better off dead
It hurts
So I must still be here
But for how long
Before I'm dragged back into the muck
Inside of my head
I live like a prisoner
Chained to the feelings I must endure day after day
Destroying the truest parts of me
Leaving something hollow instead
It hurts
Yet I remain
I continue on
Through this desolate place
Inside of my head
As it crawls through my chest
And into my veins
Burning my flesh
Consuming me
All of me
It hurts
So my eyes fill with liquid shame
The kind of fear that everyone can see
And no one can help keep away
As it passes you begin to see
The person I become
The thing
That becomes
Whatever is left of me
Can't breathe
This isn't right
I'm hurting again
From a panic no one can see
A dread no one else can touch
This feeling welling up inside
That finds its way out
At random times
Am I to blame?
It still hurts
Written by Zara P. March 28, 2017
